lifeofapoet

a friend?

2008-08-30T09:59:00.001+08:00

You.
You were a friend. You were a friend of mine I let you spend the night having fun
You see then it was my fault. Of course it was mine.
I'm too hard at work. Have you ever heard of anything so absurd ever in your life.
I'm sorry for wasting your time.

Who am I to say this situation isn't great when it's my job to make the most of it?
Of course I didn't know that it would happen to me. Not that easy.

Hey what's that you say? You're not blaming me for anything that's great
But I don't break that easy. Does it fade away?
So that's why I'm apologizing now for telling you I thought that we could make it
I just don't get enough to believe that we've both changed.

Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's my time to make the most of it
Of course I didn’t know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no, no, no, no

If all along the fault is up for grabs why can't you have it
If it's for sale what is your offer, I'll sell it for no less than what I bought it for
Pay no more than absolutely zero.

Well neither one of us deserves the blame because opportunities moved us away
And it's not an easy thing to learn to play a game that's made for two that's you and me
The rules remain a mystery. See it was so easy.

2008-08-25T13:00:00.008+08:00

She...
She screams in silence
A sullen riot penetrating through her mind
Waiting for a sign
To smash the silence with the brick of self-control
Are you locked up in a world
That's been planned out for you?
Are you feeling like a social tool without a use?
Scream at me until my ears bleed
I'm taking heed just for you
She...
She's figured out
All her doubts were someone else's point of view
Waking up this time
To smash the silence with the brick of self-control

Again....
And again my one day off......surrounded by walls and pillows.... wish can go out but walking out there alone it seems the same at home... so whats the use?

miao miao keep tagging here and there as though dat i am his soul mate... licking roughly on my feet and cheeks....oooooohhh....i wish it could turn into a gal....kan best!!

Thanks eh Yana....

thnks eh cuzz.....byk byk gambar you sent me a pic of us time kecik....i ask for ur pictures time tunang and u give me this one instead....sorry for not attending to ur hari pertunangan my closest gal cousin niz liyana.... me werkin lah.

big girl now she is....air stewardess...padahal dulu like to tercenggang sana sini...macam selenge....hehehe

Last night....

well last night is such a fun and hectic day....
fun cos my werkin partners are all great.....
hectic cos passengers are askin stupid questions....they know how to travel but cant read the signage..."excuse me sir do u know where is the money changer?"
wth....they pass our counter and did not see the foreign echange counter??.....dum dum...

At the counter.....
Gosh!!....as i have time on my own...so i look at the laptop and log in to my site... Well got tis comment from her...."call me when u're done with work! home no. pleaseeee.".......does dat sound urgent to you?....i am sure rite?...so straight away after i clock out and change my uniform...i called...golly well its cos by her handphone which need charging...sheeda dont do dat ok....hehe...so we did talked here and there and at home too....i tried my very best to talked and not to hurt her by the way i talked(plus me tired)courtesy sake i tried to hold back my tiredness...wat are "frens" for rite....well in the end my gal did the werk again...hahaha....in the end we did end the conversation for the night....thnks sheeda.(sometimes things are better not to say but keep inside of u)dats wat she told me.

well dats all for now.....see u again lifeofapoet
and will catch up wif u and u pretty soon....

Peculiar

2008-08-20T14:00:00.006+08:00

Hasheeda a girl with peculiar name.....
just look at the eyes.....a window with room full of mystery

I will always be there for you,

and I hope you will be there for me too
for our friendship can never be broken,

I will remain loyal through all the good and the bad,

and in the end we will be glad,
because without you I am nothing,
as you are nothing without me,
we fill the space a lover couldn't fill,
for we hold each others secrets that we would never spill,
and the day you're gone, part of me goes too,
because I wouldn't want to be here with out you,
friends forever you and me,
nothing could ever change that; it's destiny!

This wat happened after a long chat wif her after werk.....Airul Airul...
(Gambar cukup besar tak?)

Sometimes

2008-08-19T21:07:00.005+08:00

Sometimes things don't work out exactly like we plan
Sometimes you have to take what is in your own two hands
sometimes people expect to much and feel the end is near
sometimes people want to go and this is what I fear
I fear you will go away and leave me all alone
I FEAR that you will leave me here with no one to call my own
and then again I must remember its not all about me
and other times I must remember Its the Way its meant to before now and future times
you can't always be here you can't always be by my side
so now you know how I feel
I need to know how you feel for me
but then again I must remember
Its the Way its meant to be.

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Loneliness

heart I'm calling on you
give me the strength to pull through
but still i must believe
there's another lonely heart out there waiting for me
waiting for me I'm not sure which way to go
is it my heart that i should follow
heart I'm so unsureand now i need you more than before
heart I'm calling on you
give me the strength to pull through
but still i must believe
there's another lonely heart out there waiting for me
waiting for me tell me I'm not the onlybroken heart feeling lonely
I know everything heals in time
but can time heal this lonely heart of mine
at night I breakdown and cry
and sometimes I don't even know why
my loneliness is driving me insane
so is my lonely heart the one to blame?
heart I'm calling on you
give me the strength to pull through
but still I must believe
there's another lonely heart out there waiting for me
heart I know your my only friend
and one day we'll find love again

SHE

2008-08-19T00:27:00.004+08:00

This Girl........
Gosh! A chinese gal came up to me and have a small talk wif

me....She work as Information Counter Officer.....She always pass

by my counter wif her frens.Its been two days she do it.Yah it seems pretty normal rite but my experience working mates told me they seldom come by our counter.....hmmm....well we have eyes on each other from far....gosh...my heart is thump thumpin rite now writing this blog at werk cos she cant be found ...guess they went home already...and all i think was her....ARGHHH!!...i should ask her name...Damn!!......hahah...thnks to SWAN,dat she came again to our counter wif her fren and SWAN kick my chair signaling me dat she is here...haha...yah i blushed and struck dumb!!Wat u think i would do...GOSH!!!...............(long Paused)........and SWAN was introducing my name to her golly well....need not shout my name SWAN....and yah she say bye to me,and i say bye to her with my shivering hand flagging her off.... U know wat......my dear collegue SWAN.....she went out to the pick up point just to look for her but guess this mysterious gal has gone....greatly appreciated.She never gave up and go to this mysterious gal counter and ask her name for me....gosh!!.....SWAN was like laughin with this mysterious gal collegue....wondering wat she is telling them.....while she was there i was hiding my head like an ostrich under the sand...
Sudden footsteps could be heard....and it was SWAN....Guess WAt!.....SWAN told me i have chance cos she is not attached and her name is LAURA......and now LAURA's collegue knew i have a thing for her...gee....and they will tell LAURA about it...ARGHHH!!!

Her visage is an oath to beauty.Her soul is a flare of truth.Her path is burdened with men's adoration.Her spirit is swift for freedom.For her, I'd make it so clear. It's my quest, it's my duty.To see her face, her essence, her destiny, and her everlasting spirit,is to see her in all of heaven's glory, a woman is their merit.Her visage, she will forever wear.Cover it up; no one will ever dare.My heart would endure quiet bliss,if I could only reach and touch her lips.One chance if I might.One chance to make it right.She appears, just like magic.She's gone, how very tragic.Be time and be forever.Be my one and only endeavor.Her very eyes are staring at mine.Could this be love's very first sign?She spoke to me, it's true love.Aphrodite, this is your dove.I thought it best when I dreamt of her.I knew it best when I spoke to her.I said, 'No visions have come undone.Nothing in nature can best your perfection,not even the faultless circle of the morning sun,and my simple life has only just begun.'Her fa'ade is rippled with pure fantasy.A solitary wink would be ecstasy.Her elegant curls, a symbol of virtue.Bane hands tremble now, it would indeed hurt you.So let it be known, oh faithful goddess of love.I have seen your lovely dove.I have made my careful plea.I have sensed the motions through me.When the voice of my life's a whisper,Make it roar and soundly send for her.Since my heart can only take so much,It aches without her touch.Sadly, the vision is not complete.Without the cause, I declare defeat.It was a dream, always so cruel.I sensed she was close, my diamond jewel.I fear the days since I'm not asleep.I fear the nights since I only weep.I need to find her, without the illusion,to seal the heart and its wicked incision.So when the fearless men come up to me,And ask simply, 'What is it you want to see?'They should know to see her face is my quest,I have to, since I've been so obsessed.I know it's out there so begins my tour of duty,to capture the moment before my obituary.My resolve is an oath to destiny.Her visage is an oath to beauty.

Well its LAURA.......

2008-08-17T22:06:00.002+08:00

Where

She?

With out a thought to spare.My life seems incomplete,since you left me in despair.I'm tangled up in you,With the thoughts of our past,I try not to reminiscebut my mind moves to fast.In my dreams I am lost in your eyes.I'm swallowed by your smile.I'm tortured by your lies.I'm tangled up in you.Whatever you have done?What spell have you cast?What game have you won?I'm tangled up in you.Reminded of your laughterNot to have forgotten your silenceMy heart broken with your slander.I'm tangled up in you.Warmed by your kissesMissing your skilled touchCasting pennies while making silent wishes.I'm tangled up in you.Longing for your return.Your fingers laces in between mine.When will I ever learn?I'm tangled up in you.But you have since forgotten.My posts never answered.Your heart is not wantingI'm tangled up in you.Dreaming of our futureEven though you're just my memory.My heart still tortured...

Blastful...Blessfull

2008-08-17T09:47:00.014+08:00

Recap....

Fri Nite : Sitting Outside Hermes waitin for Din and yan,,,a sudden treble in my pocket...it was someone whom i never heard for days..MSG!!(to be continued later)..yah we did talk fer a while.
Time flies while with her...then the two star appear...Her Nemesis Din..haha..and Yan aka
John Lennon...3 stoogers having guys night out at IndoChine,with Cats in the Cradle blasting wif superb musics....
oh yah almost forgot....there is one old faggot by the name of Tasha whom steal the spotlight!!...hahah....we really have a great guys night out....thnks bros and thnks to 'u' specially.

SAT : After a night out with JL and din...woke up pretty late actually.....well lets cut it short don talk about werk ok.....The most IMPORTANT is the talk 'we' had...hehehe....Gosh!!
it is such a hit on my face,back,and my groin......Ouch!!..yah can say dat again if 'u' pls...
Well oops she did it again....she did point out a lot of my negative sides...i am being attacked by wild torns it bleed me...BUT i do respect her....she do me good...ALLAH did bless me wif the soul whom i greatly appreciate to have and will be always....Insyaallah...
she did say one thing though" u nak tahu,u nie kan...antara my kawan-kawan,u lah yg paling susah nak jaga"....then we blast into laughter ..so i replied"tak payah jaga me,just put me in one corner".....it is such a meaningful conversation to me...but most IMPORTANTLY i said sorry AGAIN for being the biggest egoist she had known...take note Airul..it happened numerous of times...well u can say dat OUCH again if u wan...we had to end the conversation due to her outing and mine....thanks fer the arrows and torns...hehe

SAT Nite : SUPPERCLUB!!!.........after the day of happines and the tormenting
conversation.....she really did make me smile AGAIN and looking forward fer the night out wif Din....
well supperclub is such and exquisite place...its totally hip and cool place to chill out wif ur buddies.....hopefully one day i can bring her there....thanks to EJ ....we got an invite...thnks gal...i hope the place is not corrupted wif M&M(mats and minahs) one day...for the very ferst time....i groove in the move wif this indonesian gal....hahha...i did!!i now it sound lame but hey i need credits for dat aite....well its just happen so fast as time pass by without realising its nearly 2am.....i msg her...and she told me to leave....yah i did ....and i told din whom is so groove down wif the ang moh dat he does not realise he is not tiger woods but tamil naidu...well in the end both of us left supperclub with great memories of our own....and HELL YEAH....SUPPERCLUB is my SPOT one day!!!....if u have urs i have mine right my cili padi?
OH YAH.....almost forgot......hahaha....she said "kalau u boleh ,i pun boleh"........hahahha
but i know my limits ok my cili padi.....

thank you fer being in my life :) !!!
catch up wif u again soon....lifeofapoet...

hmmmph....

2008-08-15T06:24:00.000+08:00

Simplicity

2008-08-13T08:44:00.000+08:00

Hate

Myself

2008-08-12T10:50:00.000+08:00

Don't Mind Losing A Fren(A special One)
Even Though Its Hard;
Maybe we Are Foe's
Dat's All i want You to KNOE!!

Thanks For the speck of time and efforts you put on;
Greatly appreciated!;
Me Not Being Egocentric;
but
I have a piece of patience and senseless mind;
and
I have a paper heart which easily bend and fold;
Let the sands of time takes it toll;

Wat a _ _ _ _ Day

2008-08-11T06:21:00.007+08:00

National Day..hah...

Tool N Fool

Can't See The Resemblance

Used Like A Fuse

Luck?

No!!

Its

FUCK!!

So In The End Its a DisMay

Wat A Fool-Fused Fuck Dat Day!!

Thanks

2008-08-09T08:08:00.006+08:00

Thanks......
to my cili padi.....

Its a night of blog construction;
With the help from her finally its not an illusion;
Told me she is not a big eater;
But a big diet sabotager;
Frens ask her for help;
But her advice to keep eating kelp;
Neither jessica, nor erica;
She is just plain jane,Hasheeda

*winks*

happy feet vs werkin feet

2008-08-08T13:07:00.005+08:00

well "they" go to have a workout with their happy feet...but me.......

but as my little cili padi said"there is some other times and i am scared dat u can't concentrate airul",........hmmmmmm......

While the clock is steadily ticking

My eye is steadily twitching

And the ticking, tocking clock that's ticking

Can't take the hint that I am hinting

If I could break the clock

(And make sure it ticks its very last tock)

I could sleep the sleep my dream is dreaming

And NOT dream of clocks that start my ears steaming

Relieved, not peeved, they would soon be deeming

Me, the ever dreaming dreamer.

But when I sock the clock a mighty wack

The infernal clock just socks me back!

And the swaying ticker that makes me bitter

Mocks and mocks with its never ceasing ticks and tocks

The day goes on with that ticking sound

And upon my face is a mighty frown

That deepens and deepens as the clock ticks more

Ever more insistent than it was before

The night comes yet still I sit,

For who can sleep with that tocking twit

Ticking and tocking until who knows when

But back to the matter, I'll say it again;

If I could break the clock

(And make sure it ticks its very last tock)

I could sleep the sleep my dream is dreaming

And NOT dream of clocks that start my ears steaming

Relieved, not peeved, they would soon be deeming

Me, the ever dreaming dreamer.

My Tormented Heart

2008-08-05T09:53:00.005+08:00

Just for my Past

My Tormented Heart

I thought I knew you(knew you well)

But out of the BlueCame a story to tell.

You loved me--very much you said;

You even had hopes that TheeI would wed.

Unfortunately (back in the past),you did a thing

that caused us not to lastfor much more than a fling.

My heart was broken(snapped in two).

Words could never be spokento repair it-not even by you.

Was she pretty?Was she nice?Hmm.

What a pity--You weren't even attracted twice.

Now all has been cast aside,All has been lost

Your dreams, your efforts, and pride;Because you failed to calculate the cost.

I'm still here for you, though,I'll always be there.

It happened before we occurred--a long time ago...There's no need to live in despair!

Well, that's what I thought then.But I was a million miles away.

(Or was it ten?)From my travels, I couldn't really comfort you from day to day.

We called. We wrote.We made plans. We had a dream

that no matter what we'd swim across this moat.We'd reach our castle & always be a team.

I don't know what happened- what took place.But something stole your liveliness--your will to fight,

Your ability to finish the race.Nevertheless, I still hung on with all my might.

Now that you're leavingAs you feel forced to do,

I'm constantly grieving--Wishing I could go, too.

Circumstance, however, won't allow it.Not yet. Not just now.

You say when you rise from this pitYou'll be back; someway; somehow.

Hopefully, one day you'll see that my world changed, too...

First, we were one, quite happily,Now we exist as two.

It doesn't have to be that way--My love for you is REAL,lasting forever (and a day!)And that's the way I'll always feel.

slow poke day

2008-08-05T09:02:00.008+08:00

Well starting the day at 5.45.......

its kinda slow start and keep looking at the time....deleting every hours and mins and secs till the end of the shift....

wat a partner to have wif today

peter : boring old man....only knows how to cover his ass...hell wif him.
esther : dumb old whore ...writing her chinese literature lines for her hungry ghost getai show.
kak rita : coughing makcik...get a cough syrup or better still rat poison pls..b4 u make the screen wet!
well for me making frens wif the com looking at my blogs..and tryinghard to squeeze my brain juices out to get some decent poetry.

life is unfair!!.....

life is meaningless...without her....damn ther u go again airul.....pak tam pakai benang agaknyer....ish....watever it is......when i saw her not the 4 letter name....oh pls not her again.....well its different gal i meant hoping to bump into her again i would like to say hi....come on airul u are a leo not a little simba....

well see u again life of a poet

Girl of Stone

2008-07-14T20:51:00.000+08:00

dis is about her whom i known fer 6 full moon.....

Hard as stone
with hidden fears
she love in silence
no one hears

Eyes of ice
never to melt
locked feelings
never felt

Spirit of steel
never broken
frozen emotions
left unspoken

Heart of gold
sweet as can be
beautiful soul
she means so much to me.

beyond man's reach

2008-07-14T20:40:00.000+08:00

beyond man's reach.....

Our friendship is an ocean, stretching
Far and wide
Never ending-
Filled with memories-
That last a lifetime

You've always known
Just what to say

You were always there,
When I needed you the most

When I needed-
A shoulder to cry on
Yours was always waiting

When I needed-
Someone to talk to
You were there
Just listening

When I needed-
Someone to hug
Your arms were
Doors wide open to me

Our friendship's
Just like the
Stars-
Both go beyond
Man's reach

All of the giggles we shared

Let the salty taste of tears
Run down our cheeks

All the Laughs,
The smiles,
The hugs,
The inside jokes,
The hours online,
And
The eighty minute phone calls

Just because

You were the family that
God forgot to give me.

izzen dat true shidah *winks*

the beginning

2008-07-14T20:30:00.003+08:00

the begining......

the life of man whom start his blog with a simple phrase and verse in his serendipity mind of his.....
well this is the start of new begining the life of a poet....
poetry is such a beautiful and poems are literary meant to be be heard and spoken in the mood of others which may be omnious ,wistful,sensual,inspiring just like life of a poet...